I think back to when I first started my business.

Every morning I drove to Los Angeles. I woke up at 4:30 a.m. and left the house no later than 5:15, because if I hit the freeway after 5:30, I’d be stuck in traffic for over an hour. My days were long, my body was tired, and my life revolved around the grind. That was the season I was in.

The other day, a friend said to me, “My business changed so much since Covid.” And it made me pause. Covid feels like it was both yesterday and centuries ago at the same time.

Covid taught me more than I could have imagined.

It taught me how to connect more deeply with my son and my family. It taught me how to ground myself while the world felt like it was falling apart. While businesses were closing, I learned how to pivot, how to thrive, how to build relationships differently. That’s when I became a farm-direct grower. That’s when I created my flower boxes. That’s when I raised the money to write my book. That’s when I ended up on HBO Full Bloom, season two.

So much growth came from a time that was rooted in uncertainty.

And today, my life looks completely different.

I don’t wake up at 4 a.m. anymore. I talk to farm managers. I push product. My boxes ship nationwide. The flowers come to me fresh, brilliant, alive. I’m living a dream I once only imagined. What I do now is something very few people can do. Most florists have to go through wholesalers. You can’t just walk onto farms. But because of the relationships I built, because of the way I moved through change instead of resisting it, my business transformed.

I went from point A to point B by being willing to evolve.

So why am I talking about change?

Because at this stage of my life, at 45, I ride my horses every day. I want to get lost in nature. I want deep conversations. I want peace. And I want people to know this truth:

It is okay to change your mind.

Change has been painted as something scary or negative, but change is actually necessary. We change our music. We change our clothes. We change our hair. We change friendships as we grow. We change where we live. We change how we work. We change how we think.

That doesn’t mean we failed.
It means we listened.

People come in and out of our lives as they do their own work. Sometimes you reconnect years later and realize you can love each other again in a new way because you’ve both changed. Growth creates space for reconnection.

I couldn’t imagine designing only with roses my entire life. I couldn’t imagine not knowing when mint is in season, when chamomile disappears and then returns. That excitement, that curiosity, that evolution is what keeps life interesting.

There are staples in life. Love is one of them.

Choosing to love people unconditionally. Choosing to look at memories with gratitude instead of resentment. Choosing not to stay stuck in negative narratives.

If I made arrangements with dead flowers, my business wouldn’t exist. If I didn’t learn from mistakes, I wouldn’t have 600+ five-star reviews. Growth comes from trying, failing, adjusting, and continuing.

Someone once asked me, “How do you do it?”

My answer was simple:
I keep going.

When things are hard, it’s easy to judge yourself. To beat yourself up. To believe the negative voice on your shoulder. But what if instead, you stayed open to changing who you are?

You wouldn’t wear a tank top in the snow. You change your clothes for the weather. You change your tires in the winter. You change your music during the holidays.

Why wouldn’t you change your mindset when life calls for it?

You’re allowed to want to rule the world one day and want simplicity the next. You’re allowed to experiment with life. You’re allowed to try things that don’t work. Vulnerability isn’t weakness. Staying stuck is.

You’re not meant to live in victimhood. You’re allowed to feel sadness, but not forever. You’re allowed sugar, but not endlessly. At some point, the body and the soul say: get up, move, shift.

Change the workout.
Change the route you drive.
Change the way you speak to yourself.

Mindset is everything.

Flowers have taught me that. They change seasons. They disappear. They return. They invite us into new paradigms if we’re willing to see them.

Right now, I’m visualizing things I can’t yet touch or explain. I don’t need to know how. I only need to focus on what I want. When you do that, life moves faster than you expect.

Change isn’t the enemy.

Change is the invitation.